I’ll just put this in writing so I’ll remember.
I now know that what I gave to the ex and A were not wasted time or wasted love or wasted feelings. Despite the pain I felt when they left. Instead, it showed the capacity of the love I am willing to share. How I can deeply love, how immense I can feel, and how I am willing to share.
How I am able to withstand the risk of hurting.
So I am letting go of everything about them and make a new space to a new one.
And so I am ready!