At the stroke of midnight, I will leave 2014 with a grin. It was a feeling a million miles different compared to how I welcomed it on Day 1. I woke up then with a heavy heart, a headache and a butterfly on my stomach but of the bad kind, the kind that makes you throw up. Maybe because of the almost 2am sleep, the coffee I drank and the decision that I am not happy welcoming a new day, a new year. And I will be true to myself that this is mostly because of a meet up with an ex that unearthed some painful memories even more. And having to hear of a one-year-late explanation why he decided to leave, I could have just leave it cold just like the coffee we shared because all he can muster is a lie. Yep, this was my Day 1. Dang!
And all I could think about is to go out, far, fast. So I did!
I slaved myself to work five times a week. Literally clocking in at 7am and leaving at 7pm. And at some point, even on a Saturday. I survived this kind of life. The new project at my office made me realize how persistence, thinking hard, eating with people you love to work with (even if it’s a cold spaghetti!), shouting when ideas collide, and some tears would actually let you see the end. With an almost 200 hours extra work and 90% done, it was a relief to see the *ERP on-going* sign put down last September.
My sugar went rolling this year. It never stayed beyond what’s normal but it was high. I did what I have to do but it was never enough. I accepted that I am a little bit sweet this time. I promise to do better next year.
I traveled this year. Puerto Princesa, Palawan, Singapore, Tokyo and Taipei. It always brings me back to my core.
Someone from the past came back too. It was a complicated. And complicated is not good for me this time. So No.
And I turned a year older! I hope what they say is true about turning forty. That it begins. Well, what had I been doing for the past 39 then? Maybe, that life, not begins, but will, be better, happier, calmer. Hhmm, i like that, calmer.
It’s 365 of 365 of 2014. I will blow the green new year horn we bought tonight. No sparkles to be lighted for safety reasons and the fireworks at the neighborhood will suffice. I have good vibes for the number 2 0 1 5. I will flash my wide grin tonight. I decided to be happy. And if butterflies will be on my stomach tonight, theirs will be just as beautiful as the colors of a new day.
Hurray 2014! Cheers 2 0 1 5!