#PrayForThePhilippines

It took a catastrophe, that we Filipinos are able to show our strength and resiliency once again. After the strong quake that hit Bohol, now the savage brought by the super typhoon Yolanda ( international name Haiyan ). I can’t imagine the hell everyone went through under the storm. No one was spared – no one – the storm did its thing and left no one and nothing standing after its wrath. Just seeing the pictures and videos now left me but an ache to reach out. It just good to know that we, as a nation, is putting in every effort, every penny we have, every time we have, every prayer we utter, and every encouraging words we say, now goes out to the people badly hit. image

Yes, our government may have lapses on their efforts and fingers are being pointed. But I believe now is NOT the time for all that. If it took an Anderson Cooper to nudge our government to push their initiatives, to decide right and on time, to reach out and leave no one not taken care of, then so be it. But this is our nation. We, as a nation, are responsible to stand again and never leave and slap each other because we have differences. It will not help. I just believe that every negative word said now by anyone must not to be taken as negative. We must take it as an inspiration to stand and rise again. Sure, it’s hard especially for those who lost not only the material things but most especially those who lost anyone or everyone. The memories will be on their minds and the scar will be forever etched on their skin. This same scar may help them realize that however hard they were tested and whatever they went through, they never gave up. It is this scar that I hope they will keep the faith to go on.
image
And we will never forget all who helped, every nation who shared what they have. Thank you for not leaving us in this most trying times. Thank you for setting aside our differences. Also know that when the time will come that it is our time to share, we will not fail you and will never leave you too. With this, I believe in the goodness of everyone’s spirit. Our words will never be enough to thank you.

And we say thank you to the One who has been testing us. He sure have a way of checking if we never lose hope and faith in Him.

The news all over the world painted a picture of severe devastation in the Philippines. I hope the news will also be fair enough to show every brave men and women, Filipino or not, who never faltered in helping in every way they can. We deserve to show everyone our strength and resiliency in whatever comes our way.

Time will be our ally now. To rebuild. To continue to go on. To hope. To live.

#BangonPilipinas #PrayForThePhilippines
#YolandaPH

Faith.

I was at a crossroad the last few days.

Well, two road parallel roads, if there is that. Oh well, I actually was headed to a one way road that leads to a dead end.

Loneliness crept in as I lay down to sleep almost every night. It fed so much negativity in my head until it made me believe that I am not worth of anything, of anyone. Sure, this thought didn’t just popped up. It was the result of the stresses in work(deadlines impossible to meet, a reprimand of an email I sent and a memo about attendance) the lack of rest and sleep, the confusion of an almost relationship ( already ended even before it started), and all the small stuff that needs to be decided or acted upon. It was a hard and stressful week.

Yep, it was this time that I questioned if I am being watched, if God has really a plan for me. And why am I in this dark hole, questioning why I am alone, asking why I have many questions. I was on that.

And writing this now makes me cringe. Why am I asking?

And then, I read this from Joyce Meyer: Promises for Everyday Life – a Daily Devotional –

Hope allows us to leave our unanswered questions in God’s hands; it empowers us to remain at peace, and it enables us to believe that the best is yet to come.

Hope is the opposite of dread, and a close relative of faith. When we have faith in God, it leads to hope, and our outlook on life and the future is positive.

image

And so, I turned around. Because I have to. No one will do that for me.

Sure, this is not a one day deal. It will take a lot of effort and nudging to stick to being hopeful. But maybe being hopeful is not enough. I know I need to add some more faith, or tons of faith. Faith that God is true to his promises. I just need to learn to be patient, to be more patient. Because I believe He will.

For the meantime, I’ll just kick every time loneliness creeps in. And if having a fabulous pixie haircut and a new red stiletto will do that, then I will oblige.

“It’s strange, I think, the way our lives turn out. Moments of circumstance, when later combined with conscious decisions and actions and a boatload of hope, can eventually forge a future that seems predestined.

Yet experience has taught me that fate is sometimes cruel and that even a boatload of hope is sometimes not enough.”