Some self loving…

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Because we deserve a beautiful life.  And we shouldn’t allow any other way. 

And we do everything in our capacity to be our best, to reach the topmost of what it is intended to be.

And let the not-so beautiful events that comes our way tarnish our soul but instead we make sure that it will polish and refine us, so that just like the pearls at sea, made beautiful by the underwater elements, we come out strong and one hundred percent rock solid.

Because it was written that we are worth that.

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Forever Summer.

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And so the red, oranges, yellows and violets are slowly fading away
The sunsets seems bluer and darker now
The days becomes shorter again

The flowers that colors every windowsill
And even the green grass lost in the meadow
Is now starting to wilt

The noise down the street
Of kids happily playing, shouting, and laughing
Slowly fading, silently starting

The coolness of the crisp air
The smell of the rain
Summer’s ending

And yet

I will carry the blues of the skies
The whiteness of the clouds
And the hues of the yellow bougainvilleas

I will carry this summer
And forever keep it in my heart
As if it never fades,
Of course, it never ends.

Truths I learned

from the breakup: (or maybe I already learned from the previous but needs to be rubbed in because I constantly forgot when I’m there).image

1. Do not settle. For anyone who is unavailable. Ian, James, Jake, Julius. Each are unavailable in their own way and yet I allowed myself to be entangled in their baggages leaving me with a broken heart and a lost identity, a feeling of unworthiness and self doubts. You don’t lower your standards for anyone. There will be someone who will fill all the boxes with check marks.

2. Learn to wait. To know him better. His character, values, interests, family, friends. To discern if compatibility is high and differences can be worked out. For the right time to be physically intimate with another. And that it shouldn’t be a test of loyalty or a basis of who’s loving more or less.

3. Trust your guts. The little things that says otherwise with regards to love, respect, loyalty, honesty shouldn’t be ignored. They are signs that something is wrong. Be intuitive but not too suspicious. Communicate and sit down to settle things.

4. In relation to number 3, communication is key. Especially when on a long distance. Sure Skype, viber, face time can help and should be maximized. It’s still different though when talking face to face. The voice, body language, tone and facial expression are helpful hints to decipher what’s behind the stuttering or long pauses.

5. It is called a love life, not a stressed all the time life! It must inspire, makes one smile, look forward, endure, and never give up.

My last post.

forgiving 2Hitting the delete button is so simple and yet it takes a lot of time, lots of courage and a forgiving heart to finally do it.

Maybe, last night I had come full circle. It was the right time to hit delete and erase the last physical memory of him. Maybe I had earned enough courage to stand on my own again, to be independent and  strong to be happily single. And most importantly, the heart, even if it’s scarred has forgiven. It beats steadily now and is wary of anything that is associated with him. The mind is now tempered to focus on everything important and can easily be re-focused in case it wanders back to him. Heck, I can now sing our favorite song without tears leaving my eyes!

I decided to erase him totally from my memory but I know I can’t do that. He will always be a part of who I am now. The feelings will eventually fade and he will just be a part of my past.

It feels good to finally write about him, accepting what happened, and taking control of my feelings without any hint of pain and bitterness.

I hope too that this will be my last post where I tag it as “moving on and heartbreak or broken heart”.

Surviving.

“And yet, I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain – the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head – but it was manageable. I could live through it. I didn’t feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I’d grown strong enough to bear it.” – Bella

― Stephenie Meyer, New Moon

Sometimes we have to hurt in order to heal.

Dang! I’m feeling the blues again tonight 😦

Believe in the Magic!

imageOkay, Rhonda Byrne said it all in the book The Magic. And how can I disagree when every quantum physicist, writer, scientist and experts swear its effectiveness?

And so I share my favorite lines.

“Gratitude is something you must have before you can receive, not something you simply do after something good has happened.

Through the act of being sincerely grateful for receiving your desire beforehand, you immediately form an image in your mind that you have it, you feel as though you have it, and you’re fulfilling your part. If you continue to hold to that image and feeling, you will magically receive your desire. You won’t know how you’ll receive it, and it is not your job to figure it out.

You must trust and know that when you’re grateful for what you want, what you want will be magically moved to you, because it is the law of the Universe.”

And yeah, I’ve been practicing being grateful to everything and anything as suggested in the book. I’ve thanked the sun, the weather, the blue sky, the light traffic, the morning radio show that always makes my morning, the newly brewed coffee at McDonald’s, the guard who always assist me when I park. I’ve also been thankful for the arms that I use to hold and reach things, for my legs that brings me to anywhere, for my eyes, my fingers, the blood that runs through me, the heart, and everything that makes me. Of course, I am always grateful for the parents, friends, heck, even my enemies. Not to mention the many clothes on my closet and the various and colorful wedges, ballet flats and stilettos I wear. The job and the salary that goes with it are also included on the list to be thankful for. And the list goes on. Because thanking everything I have right now will help me achieve everything I still desire.

One might ask how? Experts call it The Law of Attraction. This law governs all the energy in the universe and teaches that “like attracts like”. And since our feelings and thoughts are made up of energy ( yes it is!), whatever we think, whatever we feel, we attract it. Simply put, our thoughts becomes things. Remember the famous quote, ” what your mind can conceive, your body can achieve”?. Well, Napoleon Hill surely knows this law! And we don’t have to be quantum physicist or a genius to understand this. When we are already thankful for what is present, we attract more of these. And this law applies every time to anyone. No exception! Amazing right?

As they say, we have 86,400 seconds a day, its no harm to allot a second or two to be grateful and besides it doesn’t cost anything anyway. And if this paves way to everything we desire, why not?

So beginning today, from the moment you wake up, when the feet reaches the floor, say thank you. To everything you have. To the one thing you want most.

Feel the power! Believe in the magic!

Date a Girl Who Reads (A reblog must read)

This is a re-post. Worthy to be read and re-posted over and over again.
Let the (man)world know that life is a lot more colorful with a girl who reads. 🙂

Noah Colette

I did not write this.  This has been reposted from another who reposted from another and so forth.  It makes me smile and leaves me giddy.  I hope you enjoy.

Date a Girl Who Reads (A reblog must read).

“Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag. She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in…

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Possibilities.

When fleeting moments of sadness get in the way of trying too much to be okay on a Tuesday mid-morning that even the mantra I choose every time I go to this black pit doesn’t work, I force a smile and find things/quotes or real-life stories that brings me back to believing that love is out there, that it is possible to find it, that it is worthy to wait for it.possible

From the book Tiny Beautiful Things by Cheryl Strayed.

“I can’t say when you’ll get love or how you’ll find it or even promise you that you will. I can only say you are worthy of it and that it’s never too much to ask for it and that it’s not crazy to fear you’ll never have it again, even though your fears are probably wrong. Love is our essential nutrient. Without it, life has little meaning. It’s the best thing we have to give and the most valuable thing we receive. It’s worthy of the entire hullabaloo.” 

And in a snap, i get back.

Isla Corregidor…

One hot summer day, after an hour boat ride, we reached the island.

The ruins, echoes the richness of the battle that  happened May 1942.  Scattered on the island are different tombstones, memorials, busts and markers of the sad past.  The souls of soldiers whose lives were given in a war which I believe no one won.  No Filipino, Japanese or American won in that war.image image image image image image image image
The tunnel, dark and eerie.  The last fortress where no one survived.
The lighthouse, old but standing brave.  Reminiscent of what has been a true guide to anyone lost.
The fire trees, beautifully became our back drop.  They are too beautiful to be ignored.
The island – old, sad, ruined and yet so beautiful.