For 21 days.

When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all of your thoughts break their bonds: your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in every direction and you find yourself in a new, great and wonderful world, Dormant forces, faculties and talents become alive and you discover yourself to be a greater person than you ever dreamed yourself to be. Patanjali

I am aiming to say this to myself, er, to imbibe this until every fiber of my being breathes it. These powerful words I got from the book The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari by Robin S. Sharma. The book suggests doing this every morning before facing the noise and eccentricities of the world.

I am halfway finishing the book and I am loving every pages of it.  There’s so much thruth and wisdom in it.  Some I already knew and some I never thought are just important and there are some that are just there but needs to like ” hit it in your face” to be able to slowly realize while my head keeps on nodding and uttering “yeah yeah”.

For 21 days, i committed to uttering this wonderful words ( of course, with the clear picture of what i want – my vision board), and just maybe, this thought will turn into something… something that will surprise me and will make me smile. ; )

Tears.

I just finished episode fifteen of 49 days, a koreanovela I have been spending nights with. It’s a story of girl who died accidentally, then went into coma.  She met the scheduler, sort of an angel of death, who explained that the only means to go back is to collect three tears in forty -nine days.  Tears when shed represent 100 percent of pure love.  Seems easy right?  But this excludes parents and siblings.  The question is will she be able to?

This is the same question I asked myself while watching.  Will somebody shed a tear for me?  Was I worthy of a tear of pure love?  Will a friend, a cousin, an old time boyfriend shed a tear for me?

No idea yet how will the story unfolds.  I bet she’ll collect the three tears.  Interesting to know who will shed a tear for her especially that her fiancé is actually in a relationship with one of her best friends.

As for me, in my status right now, I might not need forty nine days just to realize that no one will shed a tear of pure love for me.

Favorite line:  no one deserves your tears and those who deserve them won’t make you cry.

Guilty.

Should I even write about this?  Maybe it doesn’t even deserve a space or words, and of course time.  But I am still writing about it just so I can remember that this day –   i chose not to be guilty.  The reason – I am not most comfortable writing about it.  I just thank both sis for their understanding and their love especially during the times when I am most vulnerable.

in sofie’s world…

sofie is now fascinated with colors and so we give her crayons and lots of coloring books (lest we want our whole kitchen wall to be smudged with her masterpieces!).  she particularly loves violet, after liking the color pink.

her coloring book library is complete with barney with baby bop and bj, dora, the disney princesses and her latest fancy – spongebob!

she colors every time she sees her books.  she still colors way out of the lines though she knows how to hold her crayons now.

she sometimes begs you to color for her.  she would cutely say – tita, color tayo (auntie, let’s color) and hands the crayons one by one.  below is spongebob in her world as i imagined it to be!

spongebob in all color
sofie!

Late.

It may have been ten years or more but it is still good to finally close a chapter of my so called life.  There’s no more spark, no more giddiness.  I guess it finally ended along the way.  Time heals as they say and it really is.

Happy life to both of us.  May life and love find its way to us.

My Vision Board.

My Board
Life or something like it...

 

I just finished my board.  My guide.  My life.  My vision for the next three years.  Or may be five years since I want to be a billionaire during that time ; ) !  Yep, I can do that. I believe.

My board is the result of my readings ( Rich Dad, Poor Dad, The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari – still at the middle chapter) and the CD of The Secret where it was revealed that the secret is the Law of Attraction.  I want to believe that Ben is a result of my Law of Attraction and of course right timing.

My board tells what’s in my heart now and can be summed up into:

1.  Relationships.  A man holding a bouquet of flowers, a boy playing ball, a girl with a golf club, a man and a woman sitting side by side looking at the horizon.  This is how I want my future family is made of.  I dream of a romantic and smart and a loving man.  Someone I can make conversations with and the same time someone I can make comfortable silences with wouldn’t hurt.  Add  two kids and maybe a dog would complete it.

2.  House and a Car.  Who wouldn’t want these?  A two- storey house in a nice environment, a vacation house by the beach and the latest model of CRV.  Need I say more?

3.  Jewelries.  A diamond necklace and a ring.  This would complete my LBD or LWD.  I want them to be my best friends too!

4.  Travel.  France. Rome.  Santorini, US, Australia, a gondola, a cruise, and even a hot air balloon ride.  Anywhere with a beach with the family is just perfect.

5.  Money and investment.  For retirement.

Law of Attraction reveals that the universe is a brochure.  You check what you want.  It is limitless.  It gives you what you want.  Find the happy positive feeling!  Thoughts come alive!  And a vision board helps to picture the end goal.  And of course, I am shooting for the moon.  Libre naman mangarap (It’s free to dream anyway!).

My sis often tells me, just claim everything you want and the universe will conspire to make it happen.  She often dreamt of a house with a white picket fence and I am happy to say that she is living in a home with one.

The Law of Attraction works.  Anytime.  Everytime. To Anyone.  No exception.