as this day unfolds, i begin to ask what date it is again. my cousin smiled and uttered march 16 ate.. yay, march 16 already! i begin to wonder where had been the first two months and a half of the year went. i had been asking the date of every morning as i always am confused with it. maybe because i am running out of time. it is flying as fast as it could and it’s making me breathless. maybe asking them as often would atleast give me hope that maybe it’s not yet the day that it is. that maybe it’s not yet march 16 but maybe march 2 or even february 12.
i don’t know if this is healthy or not. wishing that today is not what it is. maybe because i still have so much to do and the 24 hours in a day isn’t enough. yep, this is all about work. as if the work load now is the same last december when everyone is cramming to get everything done before the year ends. but dang, it is already march and it still feels like december. adding to the fact the plans all lined up for the first quarter, the deadlines, the projects and back jobs that needs to be done – yayay… there was even one morning at 9am that i was already feeling the nerves… i began to cram and to rattle. i began to get nervous i even shed a tear. i dunno, the nerves of feeling not to accomplish anything.
i know asking to extend time in a day isn’t favorable to everyone. a student wants to end a day full of exam, an athlete wants to end a day to rest, a wife is looking forward to end the day full of chores, a mom to-be wants to see her unborn child thus wants to pull the days. twenty four hours is enough for them. for me at this time, it isn’t. for two weeks now, i had been at the office an hour earlier than the regular time in and leaves the office one hour after six. i am at the office from 7am to 7pm – that’s 12 hours. i even took home some unfinished work last saturday and my inbox is still brimming with files to check and folders to audit. how can i finish everything? this i haven’t got time to think about.
this blog is written in the small time i have between dinner and sleep. i dunno when can i write again. my mind has been full of ideas lately and it’s funny that i am now writing how i don’t have time write anything.
i am wanting some more time. if the universe obliges and if asked what can i give in return? hmm… maybe the big time clock in city hall! this is literally big time… hahaha… tick tock tick tock. : )